Hey everyone. Well, I just feel like expressing myself today; something I haven’t done in a while. Sometimes I think about stuff; and I was wondering if our best is ever enough; like do we even need to try our best to achieve something?
I’ve been blogging for 6 months now; and so far everything has been really great. I’ve put in so much time, effort, and money to get my blog in the right place. But lately, I just feel like all my efforts have been for nothing. Like, I’ve tried my very best but it feels like it just isn’t enough. It’s a really strange feeling I can’t explain! My blog isn’t in the right place at the moment and I feel like I’m not either. I’ve never felt this urge of wanting to give up on my blog like I do now; but I just can’t. I strive for success so much that failure for me, seems like poison. Although, you can’t get success without failure; but when you try your hardest and it feels like nothing is going well, it sucks! It really does!
I’ve tried getting what I want; but I’ve failed so much already. Half of me wants to go on, but the other half doesn’t because, what if I keep failing? Is it really worth the effort? Is it really worth giving it my all? Is it really worth dealing with the anguish whenever I fail? What if it’s not meant to be? What if it’s not worth it; and it was all in my head? Giving up isn’t an option; neither is failure. But when you try your best and hope for the very best, only to get disappointed, maybe giving up is an option. And then again, maybe it’s not. But we’ll never know; and that’s the worse part of it. So, is our best really enough?